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This enigma would haunt me day and night while the medical world put me through dozens of medical tests and more than a few torturous medical procedures. In the mean time, I remained within the brink of insanity from the huge dose of steroids that in fact did nothing to improve my view, so it’s safe to assume that I’d have liked to wring all those medical necks. Even so, I suppose they did the best they could do, but I digress. The point is this: Once those six medical specialists did all they could do for me, they ironically sent me home to, “wait and see.” Needless to say, I prayed for patience every day that someone out there would reform health care, ASAP.

That’s why I’d like to advise you who read what I write to never pray for patience of any kind. It’s not all it’s cracked up to be, so please just trust me and try to trust Obama too. Refuse to pray for patience while you wait for someone to fix all those medical mistakes, because if you do, God will give it to you. Instead, pray for peace of mind and blind faith. It takes less time and it’s a lot easier to find. Otherwise, God will send you a few enigmatic politicians and conservative right winged people to patiently tolerate their fear based debates, but if that won’t work, God will send you to a few enigmatic places where you’ll feel lost and alone in the Twilight Zone when you try to open people’s eyes, much less their minds. Then again, God might put you through more than a few enigmatic issues to resolve until you achieve the patience of a saint, once and for all. Still, you’ll never be victim free until you find peace in the midst of insanity. Just look at me or at least read my story, and you’ll see what I mean.

In spite of achieving the patience of a saint, as I write by the light of my magnified computer screen today, the facts remain the same. It’s been five years since then, and I’m still blind as a bat, and beyond that fact, I’m having a hot flash which does nothing to improve my view, but ironically, I can find peace of mind at any given time. Before you say, “I could never do that,” please allow me to quote what Obama convinced me to believe. “YES WE CAN.” I claim that we can only because I have the insight to see that if I can find peace of mind, you can too. It’s true.

While the facts remain the same and even though to this day no one can explain why I lost my eye sight, I’m fine peace of mind even when my republican friends rant and rave in my face when they complain about Obama all day.  Besides, I refuse to be rude to those who still don’t know what they may face some day. Although the only thing anyone knows to be a fact is the fact that my optic nerves were damaged beyond repair, I remain sane in spite of being unaware that  no one cares to be aware of what I think, much less listen to Barack Obama, of all human beings.  So you see, peace didn’t come easily for someone as patient as me, believe me.

I used to think I was cursed, but the worst part was the fact that if I had a dime for every time I cried, “My life is so unfair,” I’d be too rich to care. Still, no one gave me a dime and no one cared how unfair my life seemed, so the fact remains that I’m still waiting to see through a foggy view of obscurity what all this means. Don’t you see? To describe my story as, “The Enigma,” would be putting it way too mildly, but apparently life will never be fair and square for mortal human beings, especially when you live within these divided United States among a bunch of Republicans.

Then again, I suppose the best way to describe the enigma of my life would be to quote Paul Harvey, who often advised people like you and I to pay attention to, “the rest of the story.” Only then will your insight to the truth improve. It’s true. Time really does heal old wounds, but the best part is the fact that time provides insight into the truth. Who knew? Obama just might be our saving grace, if only people would refuse to spread doom and gloom through a view of fear based hate, that in fact, holds us back and the facts remain the same when people  remain afraid of the monsters that only exist in their terrified minds.

As enigmatic as, “The Enigma,” seemed, it enigmatically came on the heels of my bitter divorce, followed by a day in bankruptcy court which left me bitter, of course. Although my conservative but bitter mind seemed justified, as I waited for justice to come, the bitterness stewed into a toxic brew that only poisoned me, ironically.  At the same time,  of all those  rude, crude, and socially unacceptable human beings in my conservative life, only I would be branded with, “The Big C.” So much for justice, right?

Even so, justice never comes even to the most patient souls, because you see, the fact that I was only diagnosed when it was way too late to change the fact, the facts remained the same.  Still, because I’d previously felt the need to reduce the cost of my high priced medical insurance policy, the injustice seemed extreme, cruel and unusual to say the lest. That’s why the light of truth and the insight I’d need to see why justice would never come for me could only be seen as a rude awakening.  That’s always true  for someone like me, who learns everything the enigmatically hard way.

Until recently, I never knew exactly what I was supposed to see and the waiting part of my doctor’s advice didn’t come easily for a patient as patient as I used to be. Ironically, my patience was why I prayed for patience when if I’d learned anything, I’d have prayed for peace along with a bit of hope and faith. Patiently, I searched for peace of mind, every day and half the night,, only to find the need for more patience than even a saint could not possibly achieve. That’s the hard core truth when it comes to our society’s issues too. Fear based hate only leads to debates that waste time and cost lives.

Then again, it took the patience of a saint for me to keep from losing my mind while I incessantly looked for something related to hope just so I could find a piece of serenity. In the mean time, six medical specialist tried with all their might to figure out why I lost my sight, but in spite of the very high price and as great as free enterprise might be, apparently even the most superior minds with the vision of capitalism would never find what exactly was wrong with me, my medical history and/or why I just might have to face the demise of my life. In fact, to see the reality of that fact, I’d need nothing short of amazing grace, which ironically only came when I stopped praying for patience every day and night.

Only then did I let go of control so that God could show me how to find the hope and the blind faith it takes to actually receive His amazing grace. It was as if God whispered in my ear, “Look for the gift in this, my dear.” Still, even with God whispering in my ears, it took years for me to find insight into the truth, much less peace of mind, but that’s when Obama showed up right in the nick of time. So, don’t tell me that he holds no hope, and socialistic or not, the fact remains that it’s socially unacceptable to allow people to die for the sake of free enterprise. It’s not okay for people to close their eyes to the fact that funding stem cell research would save more lives than it takes and could make the paralyzed walk. Furthermore, stem cell research might pave the way for optic nerves to be restored, so furthermore, my blind faith tells me that some day even the blind may  see.

That’s why I can honestly say that the point to anything is very rarely ever seen immediately, so that fact led me to a new rude awakening.  It came within weeks of becoming legally blind, when literally over night, it became apparent to me that after a twenty-five year career in teaching the disabled, I’d suddenly become disabled as well. Still, the next enigma left me, an ordinary single mother of three living on a disabled teacher’s income with an extraordinarily story to tell. Besides, all those hard times suddenly became a blessing in disguise that opened my eyes, to the light of truth, and in spite of my lost eye sight, my insight has increased and improved drastically.

Even so, I remained in a strange position called, “remission.” You see, remission doesn’t mean you’re cured of anything, so I found myself in yet another strange position which I’ve come to believe is “complacency.” I’d been cancer free for more than four years since the day I became legally blind, and as of today it’s been five years to this day that I began to write this enigmatic story of mine. The fact remains that I’m blind as a bat, having a hot flash and my immunity to the disease created by my bitter mind is completely spent, so the price of bitterness and resentment is very high for people who resist what must persist. The more we resist what is right, the more free enterprise greed will exceed human needs to  monopolize our right to survive and determine whether or not we will live or die. That’s a high price for free enterpirse.

Sometimes the truth and what is right just doesn’t make economic  sense, but at least now I see why I lost my eye sight, literally over night. That’s the only thing that makes sense to me. Furthermore, now I know why I hold onto hope and I choose to blindly follow  Obama lead, just because he had the audaciy to inspire me to believe in impossible dreams.  Still, the amazing part is the fact that I still believe that we CAN reform health care and resolve all our fear based issues  in spite of all those right winged conservative views who refuse to believe in impossible dreams. Apparently, it’s true what they say about God working in mysterious ways.

That’s why I can honestly say I’ve seen the light, and the fact remains that not even thousands of conservatives who’ve tried to change my mind, or six medical specialist with all that inteeigence could tell me otherwise. In fact, blind faith IS and will always be, “the gift in this,” obviously. Hope and faith is what made the USA great in the first place, but by the way, today I blindly believe that whatever I ask God to receive will be achieved eventually. When I pray, I believe God will keep the promise he made, so why would I not believe that Obama just might be our society’s saving grace? Personally, stranger things have happened to me.

Don’t you see?  It takes blind faith to make impossible dreams come true, and that’s the truth.  Just look at what Martin Luther King achieved, with nothing but the hope and faith it takes to see beyond the stife of why we fight over what is wrong and what is right.  Dreams are only achieved when you can move beyond simply suriviving the fight.

After all, God gave all His children the tools and a few universal rules to make our destiny easy, but the glitch for me so many others who remained confused is the fact that God gave human beings a will that’s free to choose what we think, say and do. Some people just choose to use free speech as an excuse to be rude, crude and socially unacceptable, so they remain blind to the truth. That’s the fact that led me through more than a few issues, which is why it’s taken a very long time for me to find peace of mind, much less figure out why I lost my eye sight. Still, here’s the good news and why the rest of this enigmatic story is nothing but the truth.

Blind faith always leads to God’s amazing grace, and the fact remains that amazing grace can make even the blind see how to achieve impossible dreams. It’s a fact, so with this fact in mind, I’ll leave you to ponder the meaning of your enigmatic life to see if you can open your mind and eyes to find insight into why people like me try to make you aware of why we need reformed health care. Just don’t wait for the patience of a saint to achieve what may seem to be an impossible dream. When you see the light of truth, choose to step into my shoes and look through my view, just choose to react to that fact so that we can all move beyond simply surviving, “The Enigma,” of life in and within a free society.

Okay,  I know we are supposed to separate church and state, so I don’t mean to preach.  Still, the fact remains that we can’t change without hope and/or faith. The good news for me personally is this: When it comes to being legally blind,  I don’t need to see proof of the truth to hold onto hope.  I know what the truth looks like,  due to what I  just know to be true from the depths of you soul.  That’s why I chose hope.